The Nasty, The Experience, The LOVE


untitledIt’s been a while since I’ve written, Dear Diary…

Since last we spoke (or rather I stated), there have been numerous changes to my life and thoughts and this is my only opportunity to actually impart all that has been… here is my semi-inebriated account…

1. First and most important; my slave status is increased from unemployed (free) to gainfully employed – especially in that I shall be getting my first tipslip next Thursday and it will tell me there is imaginary man-created funds in my account from which I may actually be a good consumer… and survive with roof-over-head and food-in-tumm. And of course, though one (singular being moi), will have money (hahahahahahahahaha), I have no friends!

2. I have a particular penchant for Florence and The Machine… this has raised a few eyebrows, however I find her music touches me in parts no man can and raises my soul to new levels… it’s peacefully encouraging me to see beyond these frequencies.

3. I realised that what I was looking for all this time is not love from a man as in seeking a soul-mate which is a farce. I am seeking understanding of the nature of emotions and I am addicted to the feeling of love and the euphoria of passion and sex.

4. Perhaps I am too crazy for this world. I just wait quietly for the starter motor on my ship to be repaired before departing this crazy world in which I do not belong or so my soul informs me. I long for freedom of the soul where all is understood and nothing remains too much of a mystery – just a little break…then again my confused brain tells me I am addicted the constraints of this body like a drug… addicted to the complexity, the emotion, the love and the difficulty that exists in understanding the why.

5. I am wound into the arms of the lie that is this realm, this frequency, this experience… ultimately this emotional jail, serving those that trick us into believing this is all natural when is not.

Thank fuck you understand me, Dear Diary… for everyone may find me insane! Oh wait… they have… damn. Such joy in love, in despair, in euphoria, in discovery…

Love is the key…

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