For days now, I’ve been pondering all sorts of questions regarding my future. Why is it that some of us plan for the future? All those clichés and sayings “live for today”, “dance like nobody is watching” are empty and meaningless if we constantly plan.
I want to be thrilled. I want to experience joy – and whilst we are on the subject of joy, I love this word. It is very expressive for three little letters. My favourite site describes joy below, stating “feeling of pleasure and delight” and so I thought to post those etymologies as well!
c.1200, “feeling of pleasure and delight;” c.1300, “source of pleasure or happiness,” from O.Fr. joie (11c.), from L. gaudia, pl. of gaudium “joy,” from gaudere “rejoice,” from PIE root *gau- “to rejoice” (cf. Gk. gaio “I rejoice,” M.Ir. guaire “noble”). Joy-riding is Amer.Eng., 1908.
“give pleasure to,” 1550s, from pleasure (n.). Sexual sense by 1610s. Related: Pleasured; pleasuring.
late 14c., “condition of enjoyment,” from O.Fr. plesir “enjoyment, delight” (12c.), from plaisir (v.) “to please,” from L. placere (see please (v.)). Ending altered in English 14c. by influence of words in -ure (measure, etc.). Meaning “sensual enjoyment as the chief object of life” is attested from 1520s.
c.1200, delit, from O.Fr. delit “pleasure, delight, sexual desire,” from delitier “please greatly, charm,” from L. delectare “to allure, delight, charm, please,” frequentative of delicere “entice” (see delicious). Spelled delite until 16c. when it changed under influence of light, flight, etc.
Source for all the above : ONLINE ETYMOLOGY DICTIONARY
When someone says: “I am delighted to meet you” you will remember the above etymology won’t you? And have a little smile to yourself…
I would say the word joy has evolved to describe the euphoric feeling a person might feel experiencing great happiness.
Being depressed for a while, I am remembering times when I felt absolute joy and I want to relive those times, because everything is better… my attitude, waking in the morning, any activity is done with some singing and a skip now and then, my sense of humour comes out to play etcetera…
One thing that may be a curse or something good about me is the need to ‘research’ my feelings and make sense of them. The best thing about me is I consciously attempt to learn from my mistakes however I never give up on what I believe can be “saved”. My intentions always pure, I believe all humans were born with absolutely no evil intentions (and contrary to Christian belief – WITHOUT or NOT INTO sin). I strongly believe a new born babe is given a clean slate.
However many previous “lives” one might imagine we each have, when we come to the current one, it is “from scratch”. I have a strong feeling in my mind that the waft about “previous lives” is bullshit anyway – logic tells me if there is population explosion, where did the extra souls come from? Unless we were all like Voldemort from Harry Potter and can split our souls? Highly unlikely. This is a topic of debate for another time.
Anyway, I was straying from the idea; if we were all born into a “clean slate”, then at that point up until a certain point in our innocent childhoods we were “good” – all of us. I strongly believe that those that became evil were “pushed” one way or another. Having been through a rollercoaster of emotions myself, I can imagine that there may be far more sensitive people in the world, possibly genetically inherited, who may not be as strong as I am (I can pull myself out of a depression), who require assistance. I believe that they may not have experienced this depression had they had the correct diet, some exercise and caring personalities surrounding them.
So… about my future; growing up in turmoil and having to learn to be self-sufficient, a single mother, a leader and so on, I always wanted to be what is socially classed as “normal”. i.e. married to a caring husband, nice house with pool, career, blah blah blah… As time went (as well as relationships), I realised this is not my future. Should I have a future? What about now? If we all worry about the future we neglect things going on now to focus on something that may never happen.
My future is a minute from now. I have decided to live day-to-day sans plans and sans disillusions about what may seem “normal” to anyone. I have no pressure trying to “create” situations in order to “reach a goal” (a humanism which irritates the shit out of me… “You MUST have goals! What? No I don’t!) I don’t have to listen to anyone but myself. The power is within me, myself and I and nobody else can dictate what I must have, say or do.
This brings me some “joy” and I’m so much happier for it!